Blaes, on Discovery. Sling Diaries, Vol VII.
The Sling Diaries, Volume VII. A photo-documentary chronicling the art of baby wearing in the lives of families around the world. Over the course of six months, Sling Diarists will create their own Sling Diary though a series of diary entries interpreting a unique theme given to them each month.
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When I asked Wilder (newly three) one morning what he thought discovery was, he looked up from his oatmeal and told me, "Diggers know about discovery. They just go to where they work and dig and discovery."
Oh. Well that's easy enough.
I often find myself feeling stale. I'm losing curiosity and too tired for creativity by the end of the day. I've been mothering and working and housekeeping and creating for almost six years. Sometimes (and sometimes a lot of times) I brush my self--my creative self, my athletic self, my servant self--to the side. But I don't feel lost.
Everyone has a unique version of a meaningful life. The nature of social media really messes this up for a lot of us. The expression of someone else's meaningful life can derail me and leave me feeling left behind, stretching to do or be something I am not, and ultimately feeling apathetic. I'm honoring these feelings, but have to stay focused on my own little marriage and our little family and our own little house. I'm okay with digging into last place in the social media race.
I am okay with standing still long enough to feel it all. The only person I have to answer to is my self in the stillness.
I have just found my self here. I'm trying to pivot away from the distractions and see my children experience this world with wonder. I'm uncovering my self slowly; I am changing my attitude toward what I know and letting go of what I thought it should be. At this juncture, I don't need a month in the wilderness alone (though sometimes I'd rather be there than doing bedtime); I need an hour alone to read, to paint, to meditate. My self is right here.
My self is not on hold. I am still digging.
And, truthfully, I am just a beginner in this life. I'll stay a beginner as long as I can. Beginners are ready and willing to dig in and be dazzled by life like today is the first and last day.
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